Part 4 Contact: Experiencers

“Many in the earthly scientific communities believe that the life is limited to the physical expression and that consciousness is a result of the body’s bio-chemical/nuero electrical functions.  Following these erroneous beliefs they draw an equally erroneous conclusion that consciousness ends at death”.

Voyagers Vol 2: The Secrets of Amenti 38-39

In trying to understand my experience in Part 1 I had to really immerse myself in the memory, or what I remembered at the time. I would set the intention to travel into the memory itself to discover what was happening just before I woke up.  What I came to discover was that there was something present in the room prior to my opening my eyes and seeing this object floating up ward and across my room. Further meditations, especially these past 2 years, would bring it all into greater focus and detail while also creating more questions “Has this happened to others?” Today there are many experiencers of contact or abduction by both helpful and not so helpful ETs.  Many of these same experiencers or witnesses are also whistleblowers, some from government projects, some from corporations, that are disclosing information long withheld from the public. It is because they have shared their stories that I am able to pick up the pieces of my own.

Before the smart phone I had a little digital camera, the Indian on the table is a symbol of one of my guides. Notice the orb just above the dolls head.

My story isn’t what I’d call a “BIG” story but that is not a reflection of the value of my experience (s) for this lifetime or for my eternal soul. It is a story that could easily have been forgotten in the haze of material world dogma and doubt and the value of the experience lost forever. 

Corey Goode is the first experiencer or witness/whistleblower I discovered that was discussing orbs. His experience is with blue orbs. These blue orbs would come into his home carrying a crew of Blue Avians, which are very “helpful” ETs and possibly part of Corey’s soul group.  He too has traveled inside of these orbs to the moon and Mars and beyond.  Corey came forward in 2014 after his memories of being in the Secret Space Program fully surfaced.  

Corey at age 6 was placed into the MILAB program.  A government program that identifies and then recruits and trains children that exhibit special abilities.  Corey was identified as an intuitive empath.  Following that training he was then abducted into the Secret Space Program for the purpose of using his skills as an empath.  He was abducted 3 times over the course of his childhood and teens and served 20 years tours each time.  Corey’s claims were that we, here on Earth, within our governments and corporations have the technology to age regress, do time travel, fly all over the solar system and that there are many beings that populate our Earth, our solar system and our Universe. 

Corey explains that the blue spheres or orbs he encounters are actually a part of the Sphere Being Alliance which is a group of these higher density Blue Avian beings. They are here to assist us as our planet and it’s beings go through a shift in consciousness from 3rd density into 4th density (some call 5D).

“The Sphere-Being Alliance is fighting the current controlling elite known as the Cabal or Illuminati who exist on Earth at this very moment. There are events and battles occurring above our atmosphere involving the Secret Space Programs and Break Away Civilizations. The people of Earth have been in debt slavery, mind controlled, sickened, and lied to in order to control the masses. We have had technologies suppressed from us that would change our lives. The Alliance is here to help humanity evolve out of this lower frequency. It’s time to know our rights, who we truly are, and what we need to do about it. These technologies would immediately collapse the world economies and make the Babylonian Money Magic Slave System of no use anymore. It means the Loss of Control of the .01% (Elite) over the Masses and a complete Paradigm Change.”

https://spherebeingalliance.com
Many of the orbs that visit me are blue. I do not believe or do not remember if I’ve been taken for a ride.

Although I will refer back to Cory again and again in future posts I can not do his story justice; please visit his website CoreyGoode.com from there you will find the many ways that Corey has found to share his incredible story with all of us.  Corey’s Blue Avians, like those of Ra and possibly of the same social memory complex or belonging to the same federation, have a message:

Every day focus on becoming more “Service to Others” oriented.  Focus on being more “Loving” and “Focus on raising you Vibrational and Consciousness Level” and to learn to “Forgive Yourself and Others (Thus “Releasing Karma”). This will change the Vibration of the Planet, The “Shared Consciousness of Humanity” and “Change Humanity One Person at a time” (Even if that “One Person” is yourself.)

https://spherebeingalliance.com/introduction
Corey with Blue Avian, Ra Tier Air and a Golden Triangle Head being before the Super Federation. (photo from Google images free usage)
http://www.coreygoode.com

I have remained a fan of Corey Goode for these 7+ years but to be honest for most of that time, although I believed his story, I didn’t see how his orbs related to my experience. That would come later. It seems that Guidance would always have me do my due diligence in research (read, read, read) which in turn builds my confidence in those things I’ve intuited. And then come the signs and wonders (synchronicities) which provides validation from beyond the veil.  Seven years plus, 10 – 20 authors and their books, lectures, series, webinars on the esoteric, mysticism, ufology, shamanism, theology and more and then finally  “helpful” ones have Kathleen Marden and I cross paths in early 2022.

Kathleen is an author, experiencer, UFO investigator and an advocate for experiencers, as well as, the niece of Betty and Barney Hill who were abducted and taken aboard craft September 1961. The Betty and Barney story is famous as being the first publicized ET abduction case.  My contact experience happened in 1965 which is also the year that the Betty and Barney Hill story would first be publicized.  It is reasonable to see why the adults might think that I had heard that story and was repeating it for attention. Betty and Barney would make the news throughout my childhood and would be used against my memory anytime I brought up my experience.  My insistence that something did happen earned me the nickname “Chicken Little”.

Betty and Barney Hill, 1965 when the story hit the press. (Photo from Google Images free usage)

That I had given in to the early childhood “programming” through negative comparison to their story became obvious in that I avoided any connection to that story in my own research.  Although I realize no one person can validate my personal experience one can gain a great deal when looking at common traits among different experiencers.

Kathleen, herself, has had the attention of ET groups her whole life. They show concern with her health and toxins that she was exposed to over her lifetime.  She grew up near a highly toxic Super Fund site, as well as, being near nuclear facilities.  Kathleen says that the ETs have such a high interest in part due to the toxicity of the Earth  and she too confirms presence of benevolent ETs powering down our nuclear plants. In her recently published Forbidden Knowledge I was able to make many comparisons with things that happened in my own experience.

Kathleen Marden, author, researcher, experiencer and niece of Betty and Barney Hill.

Kathleen along with 3 close colleagues formed a research/meditation circle in which the members of the Council of Eight were channeled by one or more of the members. The Council of Eight is a collective of 8 individuated souls/beings/energies of other higher densities and dimensions who seek to serve the highest good and have been in contact with at least one member (Kevin Briggs) since his childhood.  All four members have experiences with orbs, as well as contact and abduction. 

It was 2014 when I became interested in channeled works.  First with the Law of One series channeled between 1981 and 1984. Later my studies would include The Seth Material, the work of Edgar Cayce, David Wilcock, Carla Ruckert, Barbara Brodsky, L/L Research’s database and today I also include the work of Kathleen and her colleagues (the Council of Four) in their Q&As with the Council of Eight found in the second half of the book. Although considered “pseudo-science” to many, it is high validation in my personal world.  Yet I too will seek out as much hard science as possible to back up that which is passed along via a channel.

On the subject of telepathy, Ort who is of a higher density and one of the members of the Council of Eight describes how they use it, “We use consciousness itself as the conduit for telepathic communication.  And the telepathic language is changed into the language of the person who is asking the questions or communicating, so it is understood.” (160).  This is an important point.  In telepathy the communicators are accessing each other’s knowledge base, by increasing your knowledge in any particular area will give your Guides more data, so to speak, to work with.  This is also a reason that I read extensively on subjects of interest.

A blue orb flies from the bookcase across the room.

On orbs, Ort explains that they are “conscious energy” and consciousness or thought can travel in this manner.  Ort gives a description of itself in encounters with one of the human members as a child, Kevin Briggs, as being an orange, vibrating orb.  Around 2011 I had an encounter myself with an orange/gold orb gryrating and moving about near my feet. 

Are we using this conscious energy as children when we fly about the room or have the sensation of falling back into bed?  Of course we are.  David Wilcock, in his famously long winded way, provides a great deal of the “science” behind orbs through the work of scientist Ken Shoulders and others.  Exotic Vacuum Objects is the term coined by Shoulders whose experiments proved that orbs can be created, directed and can provide levitation, and are the basis of free energy.  Wilcock’s recent webinar has many parallels to that stated by the Council of Eight regarding orbs and propulsion.

Ort also provides this warning: 

“Unfortunately, this force can be used negatively for controlling people, controlling species, controlling planets.  There is good and evil in everything” (160).

This bunch of orbs appear to be coming out of the towel itself. You can hear the shower water running. Are these condensation or spirit orbs? If you look closely you can see an image of a bearded face.

How do I know that what those of Shongu, my Spirit Guides, are “helpful” ones?  Read on…

It was a couple of days after receiving the Shamanic blessing (early April) when I became very ill but not with COVID symptoms.  Mine were neurological pain, nerve sensitivity – especially my feet, I was unable to walk many days and other days I  just had to move very slowly, I was having some increased GI tract issues, decreased appetite but was still eating, a lot. I had strange bruises on my legs and my legs had a kind of transparent look to them, and I was not sleeping.  I did not have a cold, nor sniffles nor sore throat nor trouble breathing then or since.  In late May though I lost 20 lbs in a two week period, I would end up losing a total of 50 lbs by September.

My psychic abilities seemed to have also taken a leap at this time. I was having an increase in visual activity, seeing more spirits or beings around every corner, seeing orbs, mists and twinkling lights without the use of a camera..  Everything from muscle testing to sensing EMF energy was heightened.  I was able to put myself easily into a lucid dream state and visit my Guides regularly. My mediations went very deep and I was able to achieve and hold visualization for the duration and synchronicities began appearing many times a day.  The messages I was getting from Shongu were to connect my current situation with my early childhood memories.

In early June a book comes across my social media feed titled Plague by Judy A Mikovitz, Ph.D, on the possible source of chronic fatigue, autism and other conditions.  By the time I reached page 50 this work would link the mono virus or Epstein Barr Virus (EBV) to the cancer that took my sister’s life at age 58, it also has potential links with many other chronic conditions.  I knew of EBV as decades earlier I was diagnosed with restless legs which used to be called Epstein Barr Syndrome, however I did not know it was the mono virus reactivated nor that it would result in death if not treated. I would also discover that I likely had mono when I was born or shortly thereafter. This is one of the things I believe Shongu wanted me to discover.  

I would finally reach out to my Primary Care (PCP) and through tele health appointments blood work was ordered.  I asked for and received an EBV test.  I did not tell that my suspicion that my symptoms could be connected to this latent virus.  The test returned positive and with antibody numbers abnormally out of range; which is one of the indicators noted in Judy’s book.  Four more tests would conclude Chronic Active Epstein Barr Virus.  A CT scan would reveal a mass on my pancreas that has turned out to be two small pancreatic tumors. 

This is a copy of 4 of the EBV tests done in 2020/21. All 4 show abnormal antibody numbers which diagnoses as Chronic Active Epstein Barr Virus.

While the only cure for this “rare” condition is a stem cell transplant there are remedies that can extend your life and help the symptoms. It was clear from  reading medical journals, naturopathic articles and articles from other Drs and scientists…that what I needed was an anti-viral and to boost my immune system.   While my primary care physician would not treat me I was able to see a naturopath who did provide me with an herbal antiviral tincture.  I would later be able to obtain both HCQ and Ivermectin which I continue to take today as those with CAEBV are more prone to COVID illness. The worst of my symptoms from 2020 are gone and I am maintaining a healthy weight.  I still have the fibromyalgia and nerve ending issues but with far less pain and recurrence. 

This flurry of activity is caught on camera at my mother’s home.

In March 2022 I would find that there had been research studies done on the common health conditions found in those who experienced abduction.  An earlier research study by MUFON states: 

“…that a high percentage of abduction experiencers suffer from Chronic Fatigue and Immune Dysfunction Syndrome, sometimes called Chronic or Reactivating Mononucleosis”

And the Marden-Stoner Study adds:

“38% of the participants in our study have a CFIDS or RM [reactivating mono] diagnosis, whereas less than 1% of the US population has this diagnosis. This is a highly significant finding. Reports of such a high rate of CFIDS among abduction experiencers should be taken seriously by the medical community. One has to wonder if the alien environment is causing illness among humans. Are the ET’s experiments passing this syndrome to experiencers? Could it be caused by the alien technology that allows the transfer of a human body through a solid structure? Is it an adrenal response caused by one’s persistent fear of abduction? Is it the result of a sleep disorder? Is it a retrovirus created by ETs?”

The Marden-Stoner Study p 9

We do not have final answers to the above questions. However, I have every reason to believe and nothing to contradict that I was Divinely led by my soul group through the many books, studies, journals, articles, lectures, webinars, social media and validations through prayer, meditation, muscle testing and the ever awesome “signs and wonders”. I can safely say that I was led to information that vastly improved my health and may have saved my life.

Future posts will dig more deeply into the “secrets and cover ups” and “genetic experiments” related to ET contact. The next post I will write about some of the signs, wonders and synchronicities I’ve received that validate for me that I am on my path. Keep coming back…

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Part 3 Contact: Angels, ETs, Spirits, etc

“Look within. There you will find the answer to every problem. You cannot ask a question that you cannot answer within your own self, if or when you attune yourself to the infinite.”

Edgar cayce reading 4083-1

© 2022, sonia

Popular television would have us believe that these light formations are indicative of ghosts only.  A great deal of money is made by these TV shows that hype the fear aspect of the paranormal but you can not deny that they do have a great deal of evidence of other world or spirit activity from disembodied voices, knocks, cold spots and shadow beings, as well as orb activity far and near.  I would not jump to the conclusion that the orbs indicate a benign nor benevolent presence necessarily.  The orb is the manifested nature of beings, entities or energies from a different density or dimension of a higher vibration than our own.  They are pure consciousness so are able to interact with our consciousness, intelligently.

Why now? Why when I was 4? How many times in between was I and the family being visited by these orbs? The reason is simple. It is time. We as a collective have achieved great technological advancement, yet our spiritual evolution lags far behind making us a dangerous planet to the galaxy. Ships began appearing more frequently around the time of the creation and explosion of the atom bomb. For good reason. Our nukes threaten not just our planet, but our solar system and the galaxy as a whole. There are several sources, including witnesses, that state that higher density, benevolent ETs or Angelic Beings have powered down our nukes in the past. Today it is not just the nukes that threaten our existence but the AI technologies. Because our spiritual evolution lags so far behind our technologies have been used more for ill than good. Now I’ve identified 2 reasons why we are being visited, 1.) our consciousness is shifting (can you feel it?) and 2.) we gonna blow ourselves up and destabilize the galaxy if we don’t get a grip. The orbs can be evidence of added attention we are getting from the Heavenly Realms.

I was identified by my Shamanic group as being a “Nightwalker”.  This is their term and you are unlikely to find this definition in a computer search.  The term refers to those of us that have within our auric field a portal which attracts these lost and earthbound souls.  These earthbound souls can create interference for incarnate humans especially those that are sensitive to their energy.  The interference can come in many forms but can often manifest in the human as mental illness, addictions, other behavioral problems as well as an ability to adversely affect one’s physical health.  A Shamanic practice incorporates regular clearings of these souls and energies; sometimes through dialog with them to help determine why they are earthbound,  or by assisting the soul in resolving their issue or choosing the Light and a calling forward of Divine energies to assist in moving them into the Light.  However, even with consistent clearings and mini clearings throughout the day this orb and other anomalies activity continued.

It is an honor to serve as a Shaman and assist those earthbound souls and I also now have many tools to use in my spiritual transformation and will continue that work.  Today most all of the earthbound that would clog my portal are handled by the “helpful” beings that are my Teacher Guides only occasionally have I been asked to assist in the crossover with dialog.  Today I use general clearing techniques daily, set sacred space, call in my spiritual source and get on with my day.  My intent now is to dialog or communicate with only those “helpful” ones, unless called on to do otherwise. I am assisted with my memories and my self healing, I receive signs and wonders or synchronicities that guide me and I follow them.

This does not mean I do not come up against my fair share of “not so helpful” or negative energies, I do. Today I am guided spiritually through a process to help understand what within my emotional state may have attracted the negativity, and then I work on that issue as well as the clearing of the energies.  It is a constant process of trying to understand how I feed into certain energies and thereby the collective consciousness.

This was 2017. I have not yet learned that my own emotion is also involved and reflected in orb activity. At this time however I am just beginning a novice training as Shaman. This is a most unusual shape and the cat also sees it. Not dust my friends.

In the time from 2010 – 2014 I was having a great deal of paranormal activity along with orbs in still photos.  My apartment seemed to have a passage from back bedroom through the front door that was very active.  A couple of times while doing dishes I’d have an odd being show up out of the corner of my eye.  One day a small, orange brown orb was agitating (it’s my best description) or moving about within itself right before my eyes.  I likened it to the Tasmanian Devil of Warner Brothers.  It stayed at my feet moving in an odd and agitated manner…as if scolding me.  This was also a period of time when I’d feel things walking on my bed and know it wasn’t one of my pets because they were on a different part of the bed.  I also had a couple of encounters with a black mass forming from my closet that felt very negative. 

My search into orbs in 2014 first took me to the  work of Spiritual Teacher and author Diana Cooper, in which she works with the Angelic realms and how they are represented by different colored orbs.  Diana Cooper had her own experience seeing a golden orb when sending out a spiritual call during a time of desperation. She continues to this day in this communion and shares her insights through her website and books.  After reading her books and doing some of the mediations I did ask for Arch Angel Uriel, a golden or orange orb, to appear and it did. Are the orbs always and only a sign of angelic beings? I do not know.  Slow the slider in the video below and see the orb’s golden color.

“An Orb is the light of an angelic being that has stepped its energy down to a level where it can be photographed.” Diana Cooper

As I would search the word “orb” another one I’d come across is Edgar Cayce. I had held on my bookshelf for decades a few Cayce paper backs. I had never read them. Every time I opened them up I’d see the name Jesus and I was still coming to terms with my issues with The Christ, so I didn’t read them I just kept them. Some how knowing one day I’d be interested? Some of my signs are through the books I have collected over the years.

Edgar Cayce a devout, fundamentalist Christian, is without a doubt the 20th century’s most famous psychic.  In his readings 14,000 readings there are 240 documents with the word Angel or Angels.  Cayce channeled his Higher Self which accessed the Akashic Record to provide information.  While his readings centered on holistic healing of the body, mind and spirit, past lives, karmic paths and between life sojourns he did also discuss other worlds and other beings. Here are two quotes pulled from a recent Cayce Org blog post.

“The entity was among the priestesses of the Mayan experience. It was just before that period when those as from the east had come [Atlanteans], and there were the beginnings of the unfoldments of the understanding that there were … those that were visiting from other worlds or planets.” (1616-1)

“Man may become, with the people of the universe, ruler of any of the various spheres through which the soul passes in its experiences.” (281-16)

Edgar Cayce, The Father of Holistic Medicine 1877 – 1945

Cayce’s Higher Self suggests that as you tend to your spiritual evolution and the Angels will attend to you as exampled in this client reading:

Cayce told a 45-year-old woman that she had a depth of tolerance and acceptance of other people that exemplified being a friend “even to the friendless.” She was encouraged to work on self-development, for as she worked on herself, she would become even more capable of assisting others. As she worked on herself, she would also become a greater channel of blessings to others. The advice came, “Hence, keep thine self in the way; for His ways are not past finding out. For, He has given His angels charge concerning thee, that thou dash not thy foot against a stone,” suggesting that by living in accord with spiritual principles, she would be assisted in her life’s direction by the angels themselves. When she asked if she should seek outside assistance or guidance, the reading suggested that as long as she held true to her personal growth, what she needed would be provided by the Creator through the angelic forces. 

John Van Auken, Aliens and Ufos Are They Real? 4/30/2020

Next I begin to find the world of :researchers” that are meditating in order to make contact with benevolent extra-terrestrials. This form of research really taking form since the late 1940’s when UFO activity increased due to our nuclear activities.

In 1981 a group of 3 UFO researchers and spiritual seekers calling themselves L/L Research were conducting channeling sessions with benevolent extra terrestrials or Angelic beings when contact was made by a social memory complex or soul group calling itself Ra.  From 1981 through 1983 the instrument, Carla Ruckert, went into trance channeling profoundly spiritual information regarding our human condition on this planet and our future Earth changes. The Law of One is a work of spiritual teachings and prophecy is, today, without doubt.  

The Law of One: The Ra Material was a series of channeled Q&A with a Social Memory Complex which referred to itself as Ra. In this series of books are one of many teachings about the Law of One that currently exist on this planet and in the hearts and mines of her people.

Those of Ra refer to themselves as a Social Memory Complex, which is a grouping of individualized souls and might also refer to the “soul family”, “star family”, “soul group”, or “soul matrix”. Ra is also a member of the Confederation of Planets which is a positively polarized group of other world civilizations and consciousness complexes which are “in service to the One Infinite Creator” and they describe themselves as extra terrestrials who once walked on this planet.

“I am Ra. I am, with the social memory complex of which I am a part, one of those who voyaged outward from another planet within your own solar system, as this entity would call it. The planetary influence was that you call Venus. We are a race old in your measures. When we were at the sixth dimension our physical beings were what you would call golden. We were tall and somewhat delicate. Our physical body complex covering, which you call the integument, had a golden luster.”


Law of One 6.4

Those of Ra share the philosophy of the Law of One and the teaching of the unity of all things created by God/Source/Creator.  The message however became perverted by self serving humans and in realizing this those of Ra left us in physical form. Yet they have never left us in spirit form. Feeling an obligation to us, having once been among us, they continue benevolent contact in the hopes of awakening those on this big marble on the outskirts of the Milky Way.

On the question of how they would have traveled to our world they describe how they travel without craft.

Questioner: How did you journey from Venus to this planet?

Ra: We used thought. (6.5)

Ra: You will remember the exercise of the wind. The dissolution into nothingness is the dissolution into unity, for there is no nothingness. From the sixth dimension, we are capable of manipulating, by thought, the intelligent infinity present in each particle of light or distorted light so that we were able to clothe ourselves in a replica visible in the third density of our mind/body/spirit complexes in the sixth density. (6.7)

Law of One Session 6

All that exists comes from the one original thought which is Source. By understanding this we can come to understand how every thought we think and action we make feeds an energy into the collective conscious, where it remains for eternity.

Within the Ra teachings is the edict that you ‘take what you can use and leave the rest’ as primary to not interfering in our free will.  Ra also explains to us that the Universe is made up of multiple densities or dimensions.  We, on Earth, being of the 3rd density those of Ra being of the 6th density.  This is not a hierarchy of value or merit but rather a hierarchy of spiritual evolution.  It is the calling of those beings more spiritually evolved to assist those of us seeking the same.  The Law of One series gives us lessons in the chakra system, archetypes and the tarot, lessons in the wheel of karma and forgiveness and they also validate the existence of Jesus and many Bible prophecies as well as those of other cultural religions.  The Ra Material also makes clear our place in the Universe is one civilization in a highly populated galaxy. 

“Not so helpful” beings do exist. We have duality within our Universe and contending with our dark side is part of the experience we share with the Creator. In my experience there are other beings present before the arrival of the orb this can be seen clearly in my experience now as told in Part One. And those that commune beyond the veil can and often will encounter those that do not love us as Creator does. The Ra Material speaks of those of the Orion Group which are negatively oriented.

Questioner: Then in general I could say that if an individual has a “close encounter” with a UFO or any other type of experience that seems to be UFO-related, he must look to the heart of the encounter and the effect upon him to determine whether it was Orion or Confederation contact. Is this correct?

“I am Ra. This is correct. If there is fear and doom, the contact was quite likely of a negative nature. If the result is hope, friendly feelings, and the awakening of a positive feeling of purposeful service to others, the marks of Confederation contact are evident.”

Law of One (53.17) 

In the below photo is an example of orbs of protection. A neighbor had wandered into my apartment one day very drunk and high. I was asking him to leave and mentioned that he was disturbing the peaceful energy of my apartment. My friend had my camera and took this picture to show him the next day his behavior. We were very surprised to see this appear. The picture was taken around 2008 so is one of my earliest orb pictures.

Orbs of protection. Holding back the negative energy of the person they are surrounding.

Ashayana Deane is another contributor to this field of study. As author of the Voyager Series, published in 2000 and founder of the Kathara Healing Institute, she writes extensively about our ancient lineages and the seeding of the planet by various groups over 500,000 years ago. She claims to be one of a few that are designated to translate what is called “CDT-Plates” which is a history of our seeding on this planet. Although the printed version of Voyager series is very expensive she offers her work for free through many online archives.  Her work, like that of the Law of One, is to inform us of our origins and prepare us for a shift in planetary consciousness.

Cover of first the Voyager 1

Ashayana Deane also has a before life experience which helps me to understand my own experience of coming into my body.

Ashayana experienced “Conscious Birthing” as an “Indigo Child,” with open Fetal Integration memory (soul entering fetal body) and reincarnational remembrance since birth.

Voyagers 1 (40)

In her work she refers to a positive force called the Guardian Alliance.  It is not clear if this is the same as the Confederation of Planets spoken of in the Law of One.  I have found in my research that there is more than one group which are referred to as Federations of some sort. 

“a co-operative organization through which an enormous variety of different interstellar, multi-dimensional and inter-time species and races worked together, to dimensional universe. The GA represented a smaller, specialized group within a greater guardian organization called the Inter dimensional Association of Free Worlds.”

Voyagers: The Sleeping Abductees (33) 

In describing the various forms of travel by these entities and beings we get not just your nuts and bolts flying saucer…but “ball lightening” or orbs and other phenomenon as well.

“We are referring here to those reported sightings of seemingly mechanical-type vessels of transport that have no apparent terrestrial origin. In this category we shall also place other airborne phenomena of related characteristics, but those which lack the elements of mechanical type vestiges. The latter are usually described as Light Formations, reportedly witnessed both at close range and great distances.” (p 66)

Voyagers: The Sleeping Abductees (66)

“…we will add that many of your “naturally occurring” biophysical phenomena (such as ball lightening) are also sightings of the interdimensional kind. Sightings so common that your scientists consider them part of the organic operations of planetary physics. These common interdimensional phenomena (lightning, thunder, magnetic variations, etc.) are actually the residual effect of action taking place within other dimensional fields.

Voyagers: The Sleeping Abductees (70)

I have been able to determine the energies that are present around me, those orbs and mists and twinkles in the night are benevolent. Although I would not say that orbs come up to me and we have conversations or that I get to fly off in them…yet. It is more that they are present at times of meditation, prayer and Shamanic ceremonies and sometimes at, what seems, no particular time at all. I receive telepathic messages during meditation but at other times as well. I can often pose a query or request or simply call forward the Divine or call out in greeting to orbs and receive a response. I’ll end this post with a video of an orb that comes in answer to my call. You will hear me say, “Goodmorning Shongu” and then a small white orb floats in and upward at the edge of the shelf.

Shongu is the name I have given the energy that appears as orbs. Here you can actually see the orb followed by a flash of light that may actually be my inner self communicating with the Higher Self energy of the orb.

Please follow me to Part 4 where we will look at some of the other experiencers to other worldly events and occurrences, and perhaps get a better look at the existence of the “not so helpful” Zeta Reticuli and their purpose for being here,

Part 2 Contact: Helpful and Not so Helpful Beings

© 2021, sonia

“For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways. They shall bear thee up in their hands, lest thou dash thy foot against a stone.”

(Psalm 91:11-12 KJV)

At the time of the events retold in Contact Part 1 I had no context in my 4 year old mind as to what I witnessed.  A large part of the event, specifically the Grey beings present, in the house, having been forgotten or wiped from my memory very early.  My insistence, that “something” did happen and that someone showed me wavy ribbons of light, and then it all disappeared; was naturally met with skepticism. Today I feel I do have answers which connect my early childhood memories to my current experiences with these orbs or what is also known as  Exotic Vacuum Objects (EVOs) or Consciousness Units (CUs).  I am speaking here of the “helpful” beings and energies that are ever present and travel via these balls of lightening.

The orbs, CU’s or EVO’s are intelligent, infinite and have intention and purpose, as well as, being able to materialize into our current realm as, among other things, craft which are carrying crew. This is not to say that all orbs are benign which is a topic for a later post. It is always advised that one tune and prepare, clear and set sacred space before meditating especially if you wish communication with the energies around you. Set your intention to serve only the Highest Good. Keep a relationship with Creator in the way which resonates with you and keep love in your heart. I am a flawed child of God so in my imperfections I do practice this regularly.

Below are images taken on 3/10/22 and are my first outdoor sighting that I manage to get on camera. I had been asking in meditation and prayer for a sign outdoors as most of my images are indoors. This showed in the sky.

My collection of images accumulated as my experiences have increased and I began to recognize something familiar in the way that the orbs moved.  A good friend helped me with this in referring to the film Donnie Darko, she says “it’s not that you see them moving through space but you are seeing them use the space to move through” in describing their intelligent consciousness.  It is in that deliberate use of space that we see purpose.  It is in how the orbs glide across the room that I finally recognized that as the same as the movement of the spider I saw at age 4.

From 2015, my cat validated very early on that these are not dust. Adjusting the speed you can see how the orbs use the space to move through.

Today I believe the experience in Contact Part 1 to have elements of both good and bad but will use the term “helpful” and “not so helpful” in describing beings, entities or energies not of human origin either on or inside this planet or within other planets and densities.  What I believe happened was the Grey beings had already been there when the orb arrived into my room. That I heard “don’t open your eyes or you’ll see something scary” is coming from those Greys. It is called a thought form or holographic insert and it is basically a manipulated suggestion. That suggestion caused me see it as a Grand Daddy Long Legs spider, instead of the beautiful light being it was. I was certainly awakened or waking and the Greys leave as the orb floats through the rooms. My experience did end up a “helpful” one.

This blog essentially is the process of my trying to piece these experiences into context so it is evolving and it is of course only my perspective which is fed by my own personal distortions.  It would only be natural for some to have other opinions and I welcome any healthy conversation on the topic.  

Two things began to happen in my later years; in my personal life I was beginning to work more directly on overcoming my life traumas, hidden shames and hardships.  I was intentionally seeking spiritual answers as well as practical answers to life’s big question “why are we here?”.  As a client of energy work, acupuncture and Shamanism, as well as, traditional talk therapy I was also opening myself up energetically.  The orbs, among other paranormal activity, start appearing in greater frequency right about 2010 first on digital camera and later on two different phone video cameras.  In the Shamanic practice however I did have access to and was trained in muscle testing or applied kinesiology.

Querying what these orbs were with my Shamanic practitioner the muscle testing answers would consistently be “Yes” to positive or neutral statements and “No” to negative or even evil.. It would take much inner work, study and meditation to understand at long last that these are pure consciousness. When I refer to my inner work I do take responsibility that I am still a work in progress. As this is getting long let’s begin a look at the research:

It’s the second decade of the 21st century where I begin to notice disclosure of once tightly held information regarding UFO’s begin to drip out and become exposed to larger populations.  At the end of 2020 a COVID-19 relief package was approved and had the requirement that certain intelligence agencies reveal all they know about UFO’s.  While that disclosure has produced compelling documentation those files are in pieces and drabs, must be read and dots connected.  It is far from what many of us had hoped would be “full disclosure”.

“And he rode upon a cherub, and did fly: and he was seen upon the wings of the wind.”

2 Samuel 22:11

Considering Angels are mentioned over 200 times in the Bible I am amazed at how few people actually believe in them or only speak of the fallen Angels.  Angels act as liaisons between man in form and the spirit world, specifically to our Creator.  Angels are spirits with no physical form but can manifest into form in our physical world as described in Luke 1:11

That Angels are sent into this world to assist man is paramount.  Ezekial’s Wheel for example is a craft that comes from the skies. The Book of the Secrets of Enoch, while not part of our Holy Bible is very much one of the books of the Bible. Enoch’s travels into the 7 Heavens among the Angels shows us there are more levels or densities to our soul’s evolution than just here on 3D Earth. They are NOT our Gods, they are our Guides.

“My God hath sent his angel, and hath shut the lions’ mouths, that they have not hurt me: forasmuch as before him innocency was found in me; and also before thee, O king, have I done no hurt.” Daniel 6:22 KJV

Image of Daniel in the Lion’s Cave and Angelic

“For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways. They shall bear thee up in their hands, lest thou dash thy foot against a stone” Psalm 91:11-12

The information I was exposed to via cable television would have me believe that this was only ghostly activity or dead people or dust. I would come to find, in time, that these orbs are many, many things both separately and at the same time. 

Of course as time has passed my knowledge of Other Worlds or realms grows and my faith in a God/Source/Creator, a Christ Consciousness and a Jesus the Christ and Higher Density Beings whose purpose is to be helpful is now pretty solid. I can also see how it is our collective consciousness that manifests the lower realm entities and feeds it with “loosh (the energy that is generated from fear)”. I do not get answers so much as I get led to find the answers through what I read and whom I meet along the way. I have faith and confidence in the messages and synchronicities I receive.

Due to the enormity of information this will be broken down into parts. Stand by for Part 3 as we will explore more of the research and writing around UFO’s, ETs, Angels and Spirits, channeling and what they say about these orbs or light anomalies, the reasons why we may be seeing so much activity today, and why so many are receiving this type of spirit communication.

Part 1 Contact: Visitors from Other Worlds

© 2021, sonia 

The following experience is written from two perspectives.  First is an enduring memory I have from age four. The second is from from an astral perspective or disassociated view and a memory more recently surfaced.  The italicized portion is memory that has come back over the years and most specifically this past year plus (2020-21).  I attempt to illustrate what I saw decades ago using the photos, screen shots and videos of more recent years’ light anomalies or orbs.  

Part One will be retelling my experience with little or no comment nor conclusion .  In Part Two (or more) I will explore the possibilities, beyond the material realm, using the various opinions and multiple academic, scientific, historic and spiritual sources that I have studied over the years that inform this experience as what can be called “otherworldly”, “spiritual” or “multi-dimensional”. The use of quotes does not necessarily evidence a belief system nor endorsement of the person quoted. Rather it is the best descriptive language, at this time, while also showing the many sources and works that touch on the theories surrounding our eternal souls and our place within Creator’s Universe.

Part One: Contact

A 1960's single family two story home.  Sapling trees in the yard, indicative of it's newness, a blue car parked in a neighbors driveway and very green grass marking the spring season.
My home in Maryland Easter 1964/65. The upstairs window on the right is the bedroom I shared with my sister.

Waking from sleep my eyes are still closed. I ‘feel’ the words “Don’t open your eyes you might see something that will scare you.” Still my eyes open and then I see the warning was not without merit. Right before my eyes, floating upward from the floor and between the bed and the wall was my greatest fear, a spider.  Not just any spider though, this was a grand daddy long legs spider and I really do not like them.  It floats upward vertically and then begins moving horizontally over my bed.  Throwing the blanket over my head my first thought was of my big sister.  I’m not worried about her, I need her to save me.  She is asleep in the twin bed next to mine.  I know it will only take one foot on the floor and I can launch myself into her bed and into safety. Except there was a floating grand daddy long legs over the top of me.

Grand daddy long legs spider. Small reddish body with brown spots, 6 legs sprout from the tiny center.

Managing to turn over in bed under the covers it is only a couple of seconds out in the open and I am in the safety of my sister’s bed with the blanket over both of us.  She is not too happy about it as I’ve woken her up.  

“There is a spider! It’s floating in the room and it was over my bed and now it’s over us,” I sputter on the verge of crying.

“Shut up and go get Mom then!” saying ‘shut up’ was against the rules but I didn’t bring it up.

“No, it’s out there,” whining now.

“Nothing is out there, just look.  Go get Mom and Dad,”  she groaned as she turned over to get back to sleep.

(Italics are used to depict parts of the memory that came later).

I am actually in two places now.  There in my childhood home running across the almost bare wood floor.  I am also up above, viewing the scene from the ceiling…there is no roof on the house and I can view all the rooms from this vantage point. I am looking down at the twin beds and I see it.  A tall grayish, brownish, long legged, creature with a large head and big black eyes.  My sister, still asleep in her bed, is held in a blue light. I move beyond the bedroom wall to my parent’s room.  I see this time two creatures like the first, each is on either side of my parent’s bed.  They are doing something. Checking something?

A very real looking animation of a tall grey ET, very thin, greyish blue skin and large black eyes, can not see any white to the eyes.
Clipart image of a grey alien, this is very close to what I see in this memory.

I know it’s no use, my sister can’t help and I’d have to go to my parent’s room.  I brave a peek from under the blanket. Coast is clear and I hit the floor running.  Across the little rug and hard wood floor I run out of the room, into the hall and turn toward my parents room.  

There I see the small 4 year old form that is me, a splash of black hair,  pajama top and bottoms, white with maybe a light colored print on them.  I watch as she (myself) jumps from one bed to the other; then again from that bed she runs right through the first creature who then vanishes, splitting off into shards or pieces that fly into the air before disappearing. The blue beam is also gone. As she (myself) stands at the doorway of her parents room the two creatures cease their activities and look toward the doorway, she (me) doesn’t see these two creatures same as she did not see the first.  What was a grand daddy long legs is now clear to me, from my perch above, a beautifully, multi colored round orb of light.  The creatures seem to react, looking up, as the orb enters my parent’s room.  They vanish, much like the first, and my view from above ceases.

clip art image of grey extra terrestrial
Another clipart image that closely resembles what I remember seeing.

I stand in the doorway of my parent’s room and I see it again.  The grand daddy long legs is moving toward the bed right to where my parent’s are sleeping.  I let out one of those little girl, high pitched screams.  To this day I can safely say I’ve never seen two people wake up and get out of bed so fast. In seconds I am in my mother’s arms and my father is looking about for what could have caused such a ruckus. He looks into our room and my sister is now sitting up.  I guess I’ve woken her up too.

I was insistent to my parents about what I did see and worried for them and the grand daddy long legs return.  To keep me calm and so they too could get sleep it was decided I would be in bed with my sister with the lights on.  I was thrilled, my sister not so much.  My parent’s go back to bed and my sister is soon asleep again.  I, however, am wide awake. 

The above screen shot from Nov 2014 shows how the orb in motion has a sort of tail trailing behind. The one by my bed was moving vertically with the tail looking like legs.

Sitting up slightly on my pillow watching our doorway and the dark hallway beyond something white comes from the left of the door jam, like something partially sticking out of our 3rd bedroom.  I lift up to see better.  I am not frightened. It slowly moves back behind the doorway and out of sight. I return to a reclined position and a few seconds later there it is again; partially sticking out from the doorway.  There are many cycles of this exchange that today I realize is a “peek a boo” game.  I am very  curious and know this has something to do with my scare earlier but the spider is now far from my thoughts.

Taken over Thanksgiving 2021 at my mother’s home. This is a very good example of what I was seeing peering from the other side of the door jam although what I saw was much more solidly white.

Flattening my blankets to make sure they are not in the way of what I am seeing.  Of course the blankets are pink and this object is very white. Solid from my perspective.  With 4 year old aged limits on memory and images I consider that this is a cartoon baker’s leg. I imagine a baker in a hat with a white apron and white pants.  I decide he is sticking out his leg and then pulling it back. Later in life I would also equate this to a white robe of a Priest or an Angel.  As this “peek a boo” continues I realize I know things in my head but not hearing any words.  I know that this white thing is very sorry about my being frightened earlier.  It is concerned with me and wants me comforted. It has a distinct male energy; strong and protective.  And it has something to show me.  

I know this to be a gift to be shown to me and not something I will hold or keep.  I anticipate and my curiosity builds.  Then from the 3rd bedroom, up near the ceiling and against the far wall of the hall they begin to fly.  Ribbons and ribbons of colorful light; greens, yellows, blues, whites, reds, pinks.  They flow down the hall and out of sight before returning on the opposite wall.  I do not know how much time passes but they slowly begin to fade away.  Looking back at the doorway expectantly, smiling because I am very happy now and awaiting the next surprise.

What I recall seeing at age 4 was much more uniform. This is the closest example from 2015. Notice even having the television on doesn’t deter “the visitors”.

“What is next?”, I think in my head.  

Wanting to see more and curious as to who is doing all these tricks for me I ask, “Can I see what you look like?” “Come out from the doorway so I can see you.” “I want to know who is there.” All of these thoughts are in my head but I feel I am conversing with something.

Again there is a knowing that I will not be permitted to see more than has been shown so far.  I become disappointed and even begin to pout.  Suddenly there is a shift in the energy and I am going to see something more; what I can only describe as a “negotiation” with others (?) a deal is struck and I am going to be allowed to see more than what has been shown.  I have no fear just a sense of peace and protective love.  I wait a few seconds.  From behind the door jam of the 3rd bedroom reaches out a hand. This is an adult male human hand and it does twinkle fingers at me. Not in the least threatening.  A little wave from a large, brown, human male hand.  Then it was gone.  

Clip art of the Hands of God drawing with one finger hand reaching out for the other.
Not what I saw but appropriate.

The sounds of movement come from the room to the right.  My father is up and I can not wait to tell him about everything that has happened since they went back to sleep.  As he readied himself for work I began retelling what had happened.  Likely I was very excited and talking very fast as was my habit.  I tried to explain that “a man” had been there visiting me and trying to make me feel better and that he sent me colors and I could talk to him without any words.  This was not met with equal excitement.  As far as my Dad remembered I was scared out of my wits and now I’m talking about some “man” in the house visiting? What nonsense. 

My father, being fatherly, did not want me ranting about such fantasies and scaring everyone the house.  I am certain that “the man” is still in other room. A normal parental thing to have me do is go to the room and see that there is nothing there; nothing to be frightened of and no man, it was only a dream.  I explain I was awake the whole time and the light was on. Dad insisted and so I went to that 3rd bedroom.  Looking in the doorway the room looks like a photograph negative, and there in the center of the room is what looks like a human man kneeling on one knee and closing a briefcase. I can not make out his features. He appears to be closing the case which was a rectangular, hard type case with the locks that push down and unlike my father’s which was soft leather, more like a bag with a handle and a snap to close it.  The man turned and his head moved as if he was looking at me as I stand in the doorway.  Then he vanishes and the room returns to normal.

two strips of negative format film
When looking into the 3rd bedroom the entire room was colored thusly.

I run back to my Dad.  “I saw it, I saw it, it was still there.  The man was there and he looked at me…and, and….”  My father threw up his arms and left for work shortly after.  I waited for my mother and sister to wake up and hear all about what happened.  I received much the same response from them as with my Dad; it was a dream, I had a nightmare, or I watched something scary on television etc.  It would be decades before I would begin to put the pieces together.

My sister, Linda, on the right. Me on the left. I believe it to be about this age when I had this experience. 1965ish.

End Part One.

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Oblivion

by Margaret

Where I came from and where I seek to return can be best described as oblivion. Where thoughts and words do not exist. Where there is only peace, full inclusion, and good. Oneness that existed from the beginning of creation and will be for unknown time to come. Where time does not exist. A state of pure being without consciousness of being.

The miracle of all miracles happened when out of creation’s mass variety a biological creatures a (CREAT-ure) developed that could give creation awareness and consciousness of itself.

AND GOD SAID IT WAS GOOD
Then man began to do creation in his image.

First he named creation GOD and gave god human characteristics and began to believe in all sorts of other things that separated him from creation.

From creation came something disconnected from itself. MAN

Out of creation came a creature that separates itself on purpose and teaches it’s offspring to follow it’s example from birth.

Man can not achieve perfection while separate from creation, BUT, man can learn and experience things in a way creation can not. Man and creation became a team.

Through man, creation gained self awareness. Through creation man gained creativity and imagination enough to stay separated and thus become everything humanity can become from one end of the spectrum all the way to the other. If looked at like an experiment, the scientists must allow all possibilities, no matter how harsh, in order to glean all the data. The experiment will play out to one of 2 outcomes.

  1. The human race will recognize creation once more and join with it to use the knowledge gained for peace and goodness.
  2. The human race will continue on it’s path of destruction until creation can no longer support it.

Then the experiment ends. PEACE ON EARTH
Either way

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Copyright © Margaret 2021

I Am Where I Came From

by Margaret

Where did I come from?

I have always been here.

I will always be here.

I am an integral part of creation that has been violently torn from, trust out, or even kidnapped from the womb that is all Creation.

Everyone’s experience is different. Many see it as gentle and even loving. I remember violence.

Everyone can remember because what we experience is all recorded in memory, no matter how successful we are at hiding it from ourselves.

IS THIS AS GOOD AS IT GETS?
NO!
It gets better and so mind blowingly better than the human illusion can ever imagine.

From the first moments after birth we draw babies out of reality into the human illusion. They are taught to use their creativity and imagination to sever connections with creation and make connections with a select few members of humanity. We have all gone through this initiation, which can be likened to brain washing.

The most damaging thing we are taught is that our beliefs are real, not made up by ourselves and those around us, and most damaging of all is the beliefs is we cannot be one with creation while living our lives here.

It is for everyone to reunite with creation, no matter how you define it, before your body wears out.

From the very first man, we have known to seek out some thing. Be it truth, God, enlightenment, waking up, or the many words that ultimately mean reunification.

From soon after that first man, words were used to hide the truth and to believe in ourselves instead of creation. Communication with creation all but ended.

The cycle of life became interrupted.

I came from creation and developed my own belief system based on my environment and my imagination and creativity. I completely bought into the human paradigm and lived close to 68 years. How I prepared to reunite with creation is one of many paradoxes that have come to fruition. A mystery and yet perfectly clear at the same time.

What is known is that I am reunited with creation and it will not be severed. Also that everyone can be reunited with creation by shedding the entire human illusion to discover who you were and always have been. Nothing is lost and all is gained. I am now an observer of my life and all life around me. I am spirit in human form. I am creation observing itself and it’s creation, humanity.

Where did I come from? I came from where I am. HOME

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Orbs Oh Holy Orbs

Orbs, ball lighting, spirit energy etc. a phenomenon so constant today as to be the norm.  I am not talking of the artistically embedded orbs used over green screen on the t.v. which I noticed appearing regularly in 2017/2018.  I mean the light energy orbs that we have been picking up with our cameras since the beginning of cameras.  Born in 1961 I’m the era of the Brownie camera.  I remember as far back as then seeing light anomalies in photographs, albeit many were likely lens flares.  I believe both technological advances as well as the Cosmic/Galactic changes that we are currently undergoing play a role in our ability to capture this phenomenon on camera.  What they are, why they appear, where they come from, and what they wish to impart have been my questions and at the root of my search since 2014.

Taken A still shot of a golden colored energy orb flying by.  Setting is a living room with a radiating heater, small shelf of books and a bit untidy green couch.
Taken November 2014, a screen shot of a golden orb in motion. Diana Cooper in Enlightenment Through Orbs, Ch 15 states the gold orb is the energy of Arch Angel Uriel.

It was my first smart phone that captured them on video. I was so excited see them in motion I would say I became a bit obsessed with filming them. Today I have over 600 and possibly as many as 1000 of these videos. During the years 2010 – 2017 I was a client of a shamanic healing practice called Healing Key Way, [http://www.healingkeyway.com] as these very first videos appeared. A very good program developed by William Phipps and Karen Kuenning which helps the client to address traumas and other issues through spiritual path work. I highly recommend it although I personally do not practice any longer I was trained to the level of Practitioner 2017 – 2019. In each session sacred space is created and statements to do “only the highest good” during sessions occur. I do feel the work that I did through out the years as a client and later as Practitioner has opened me up to greater spiritual reality, specifically due to this type of intent.

Watch to the end and you will see a beautifully colorful orb fly past my two dear pets as they play. This is my very first capture on video. This was taken 11/24/2014.

I did not recognize, at the time, that I had seen this phenomena in motion before, not just in photographs but with my eyes; it would be another 7 years before I’d connect today’s orbs with  experiences I had as a  small child.  As a child I did speak about my experiences because I was searching for someone who had the same experience…or for anyone to tell me what it was that I was seeing.  My expression of those experiences when I was young garnered me some negative attention so I eventually learned not to express them.  The inability to express my experiences would become an ingredient in my atheism which would be a primary force in my rocky past.  It would be my recognition of that lack of spirituality that would create the drive toward seeking Source or Creator.

This is what I call a feather orb. I captured this at home just after finishing a session with my Shaman. I left the sound on so you could hear my excitement at what I am seeing.

At first I thought these orbs were ghosts.  It was a time when paranormal shows were really getting big and of course they were always capturing orbs in their haunted locations. As I would search the internet for information I found very little in 2014-2015.  There were two books by Diana Cooper and Kathy Crosswell with photographs and their channeling as to who or what the orbs are.  “Every Orb is the visible manifestation of a spiritual being that radiates a message or energy or both,” is what they write in Enlightenment Through Orbs.  Those photographed in their books are the manifestations of Ascended Masters, Saints and Arch Angels.  They include many beautiful meditations to do while focusing on the photographs. I also ran into the Cosmic Disclosure duo of David Wilcock {www.DivineCosmos.com] and Corey Goode [SphereBeingAlliance.com], Secret Space Program insiders and leaders within the Disclosure community.  Corey Goode is well known for his travels via a blue sphere or Orb and his contacts with Higher Density Beings.  David is self educated in the sciences, also an ET contactee and channeler. These two men have brought me furthest in my understanding of what the Orbs might be. In David’s recent class Gateway to the Galactic Mind he does say not to take the  appearance of orbs lightly as they could be “entire motherships” of benevolent ET’s.  Added to the work of Carla Ruckert and L/L Research channeling Ra and The Law of One and I’m left with…Star Family.  

Today, my iPhone captures the Orbs almost as well as my original Android did. These are from October 2021.

In 2014 I was beginning to learn Consciousness Kinesiology or Muscle Testing, as a means of communicating with my Higher Self and building my intuition.  Through this testing I was able to determine that the energy is indeed spiritual, other dimensional and benevolent. Through later meditative practices is when it became clear that there was purpose to their overly obvious presence in my life today.  I’m beginning to believe that purpose may simply be to show that something exists beyond what my physical senses can determine. That they are evidence of my Star Family and an existence beyond that of this lifetime and this planet.  The dots have now connected to another early childhood memory showing me they’ve been with me all along.  Perhaps what I am to “remember” coming into this life might have something to do with these beautiful beings of light.

A darkened living room, book shelf on the wall with many books and objects. In from of that is a green high back couch.  In the center of the frame is a large white orb in which you can see 3 other orbs inside.  A mother ship perhaps?
A screen grab from October 2021. You can actually see 3 Orbs within the larger one. Mothership perhaps?

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Before I Was Here

We’ve all heard of the near death experience (NDE). I began hearing stories of the ‘phenomena’ in the media in the 1970’s. Controversial at the time but by the 21st century it has become accepted within the scientific and religious communities as well as across the general public as something that does indeed happen.  A google search on “books about near death experiences” yields a bit over 96 billion hits. Reading of other’s NDEs can be very inspiring and brings hope to many who themselves or their friends and family are facing the end of their lives.  Reading the stories of people who have all manner of spiritual experiences can be helpful not only in providing hope for the beyond but also in triggering our own sacred memories.  The experience I write of here is not a near death experience however…mine is a “before life experience”; the experience of coming into my body, of becoming a conscious human and of the beginning of a journey that goes from lifetime to lifetime and star system to star system.

Where was I before I was here?  It’s been a question I’ve been asking since a very small child. Spurred by the memory of an experience which for a number of years I had thought was just a dream.  It is one of my most enduring memories that over time has not faded rather its become more clear. 

It goes like this: I am in the kitchen of my childhood home.  I am up at ceiling level above where the refrigerator would stand, a kitchen scene plays out below. To the right a woman stands with her back to the room, she is at the stove.  A girl sits at the table and she is facing me, to my left is where I am going.  I am floating downward from what I believe in the dream is the refrigerator, large and bright white.  I’m seeing the girl again, with long brownish blondish hair and brown eyes and I say or think (probably think), 

“Oh, look who is here.”  

I am very happy by it too.  I have a recollection of turning back toward the refrigerator, large and bright white, and I say or think, 

“I will remember this time, I will not forget this time.” 

I also see another being to my right, tall and slender but can’t make out much more.

I get closer to this body that I am to become and once I reach the destination the veil drops and I’m me, “sonia”. I have no memory following that until the next experience around age 4.

What did I mean by “remember”, “not forgetting” and “this time”? It was not words that I spoke but more like thought being transferred. Telepathic.  Who was I speaking to?  What does this mean? “Where was I before I was here?  Why isn’t everyone asking where they were before they were here?” “Why do people worry about where they are going when they die? They need to be thinking about where they were before they were here!” 

I had thought I was age 3 in the “dream” but in recent years meditation has helped me clarify that it is actually when I am born or very shortly after. This experience was in my psyche from the start and it was later infused with language and imagery as I attained those skills. As soon as there was language I could ascribe to the event I did and that is what became memory. The memory does seem to remain at that childlike level for most of my life.  

 Over time I’ve gained some clarity within the memory.  My spiritual quest began about 7 years ago with the appearance of many orbs that I could capture on video.  That began my seeking.  I wanted to know what and why they were around.  Since I have studied esoteric spirituality and mysticism, energy and crystal healing, channeling and meditation.  Today I am in continual contact with those spiritual beings or angelic forces that are a part of my soul group.  They have not steered me wrong yet and they cheer me on this current venture of sharing my story.

With the help of The Beautiful Many or Benevolent Beings (which is how I refer to them and they also have names) I have been able to clarify the memory and see more detail.  The clarifications were regarding the time period, I was not 3 I was being born; the figure to the right has come into focus and well, it is not human, but it is Divine.

 I am up very high, higher than the ceiling.  Below me is what appears to be a hospital ward with one bed sitting solitary at the back end of a long ward.  A light shines down on this one bed, I do not notice any other patients in beds.  That is where I am headed…to that solitary bed.  I am traveling down toward the one that I am to become and I see a girl facing me.  There is a woman sitting up in that bed, her hair is dark and piled on her head or short and puffed up, I do not see her face. Standing next to her bed is the very young girl with long blondish brown hair.  I think to myself, 

“Oh look who is here,”  

and I am happy for it. I look back and up, the direction I floated from, and there are 3 beings with me as I say,

“I will remember this time, I will not forget this time,”

So it was not the kitchen but a hospital ward. What I had thought was a kitchen table was actually a hospital bed.  And now I know I am not alone as I come into this body.  There are others with me. When I first discovered this in meditation the beings were shapeless forms. In later meditations they are like bright flickering light, and bright with colors. I do not get a sense of bodies or faces but I do feel one on either side and one behind me.  Do I have sides if I am not in my body? Today I am able to see more forms than the original 3…but I’m still working to get a clear image. All of them appearing as light forms throwing off prisms of color.  I have a sense of discussion, instruction and or guidance from these beings. I know that what I am to do will be difficult and lonely but I really want to be doing it…there is a sense of duty mixed with a deep desire. I know that I am to not give up and never, ever kill myself because I will want to see how this story ends.  

Also the tall, slender figure has come into greater focus; she is various shades of blue, yes, she is a she…her eyes are large and almond shaped and I see a smile on her lips.  I notice her back has something on it…is that feathers? wings? and suddenly she spreads them out – yes she is winged.  She is present not just for me but for others as well; perhaps for my sister or my mother or both. I call her AzúI  and know her as my Guardian Angel, perhaps my Higher Self.  Iknow in time and with deep meditation and prayer more will come.

“I will remember this time, I will not forget this time” 

That is my response to this guidance. I set an intention coming into this incarnation to REMEMBER why I was here.  I stacked the deck with a memory that would not die.  This “before life” counseling session from my guides seems to have set my moral compass and my personality.  Beginning in childhood I did not like secrets, I never could keep one either and everyone knows I still can’t. I did not like lies and not just because I was bad at it, which I was…but there was something about lying that would break me on the inside, I’d feel betrayed and regaining trust takes a very long time. It made me very sad if I found out a lie or to see another person be bullied or cheated.  

2015 a shower of orbs appears during the early morning hours at my home in Oregon.

I told this story to a shamanic healer during a session. It was she who mentioned to me, after hearing this story, that I might be a wanderer. That I may have incarnated from an ET soul, a different start eternity system.  About this same time I and perhaps it was the shamanic work itself but orbs began to show up in my pictures and videos with great frequency.   All these colorful, different sized and multi-colored orbs flying about sent me seeking more answers.

Today there are hundreds of spiritually channeled works, including the Bible, that do help clear up my questions.  From understanding my before life experience, to orbs to being a wanderer, and more I’ve discovered from various channeled material and a plethora of ET researchers and UFOlogists.  I am learning in this process that it is time to break the historic cycles, not by denying they happened but by forgiving them. My spirit guides tell me it is not important that people believe or even read my story…it is important that I tell it, that I put it out there in some formal way.

I write this in the hope that it might trigger the before life experience of the reader.  Or validate for another experiencer that they are not “the only one”.  We are all individual souls on personal journeys within this collective but with a common goal, Ascension into a higher density realm. Do not expect your experience to match another’s precisely…mine is not “near death” mine is “before birth” but because I could not describe a time that I may have died I blocked myself off from realizing the magic of the memory.  So do not compare yourself…know that many manifestations of benevolence are occurring. Your guides and angels will speak to you through your own experiences, language, knowledge and belief systems.  Know this as well when interpreting another’s experience as you listen to the stories others have to tell.

There will be those that will believe this an attempt to get attention. There will be those that will believe this story, and others to follow; to be the musings of the deluded. There will be those that think I’m making it up. There will be those that will call me egotistical, arrogant or grandiose.  To “those” I say, you are a blessed and loved child of the Creator and I love you too.

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In Gratitude – sonia